Month: September 2014
So, another collection from my big weird diary
worrying doesn’t rid tomorrow of it’s problems, it rids today of it’s strengths
tough times never least, but tough people to
nobody can start a new beginning, but anybody can start today and make a new ending
a gem cannot be polished without friction
All fairly standard, but also true. It could be argued myself and my partner have had our share of tough times, but they pass- until something new comes along. I think the worrying ones a good one, especially for my partner to keep in mind
So, another quick scribble in I the pub led to this.
Ordinarily it would have been easy to turn what looks like eyes into a bigger picture, but I was hit by some writing inspiration.
The eyes shone in the torchlight, reflecting it back at me as I tried to see a head to hold them. I couldn’t see one but I could easily imagine one, with a huge mouth, and huger teeth.
Since the fire at the lab things had changed and humans were prey, and right now I was being hunted. The eyes were watching, they hadn’t pounced, which could only mean the creature wasn’t hunting alone. Or worse, it was a part of a full pack of something monstrous.
Ah yes, the lab fire. Nobody knows what was being done there, but there hasn’t been any power since it burned to the ground. And the land is suddenly so much more dangerous. Aside from the creatures and the lack of food and power, it’s the humans that are the biggest threat. Scavengers aren’t an issue, that’s become the norm, it’s the power brokers, those who had access to the supplies we all need; batteries, food, water. The time they spent hoarding and pricing us out made them greedy and ruthless, now they’ll do anything for power.
Of course, even amongst the arseholes there’s those that were already ruthless bastards, they essentially rule the land now. At least in the day when they dare come out. Right now it’s dark, so they’ll be safely locked away in their well stocked and armed holds, whilst the rest of us scrape around for what we can get whilst praying nothing catches our scent.
A snapped twig drags me from my reverie, another creature to the right. Moving slowly I inch towards my bag, fumbling with the catch as the reflected eyes circle around. I ignore the gun, the ammunition ran out long ago, instead taking the only other thing I can use as a weapon; lighter fluid. This was a lucky find a few days ago, digging through a looted shop I found a few bits and pieces that had been missed by previous visitors. A full canister of lighter fluid would have given me days of food in trade but right now survival was more important.
More snaps, moving in, I spray some fluid onto a branch and with a shaking flick of a lighter set it ablaze, illuminating a beast the size of a small car fifteen feet away. It’s stealthy approach interrupted it pauses as two more slightly smaller creatures join it from my flanks.
I’d expect at least one more, but right now I have to decide, wait or act.
A stream of fluid shoots from the can, through the flame and ignites, striking the lead creature square in the face. Unleashing a squeal it leaps back, the others now also cowed into postponing their attack. Pacing back and forth they move out of the range of the fire and out of the light. Thrusting the branch into the fire I’d been building I let the blaze rise with a little boost from the canister I’m holding,
I doubt I’ll be sleeping tonight.
So, another entry from the big weird diary, I must have have some disturbed sleep at the time.
Me, Dainton (of dirty Sanchez fame), mb, gas and two or three others are in Cardiff, we pass through a church because it’s a shortcut (?). Only a few of us put money in the donation box and the priest locks the door for not giving alms.
Also, another short dream one.
I’m disappointed I’d forgotten most of this one before writing it down, but I’m at a bar with my friend rl and he has a babies body and limbs, but his adult head, which is quite large anyway
I really do wish I’d remembered more of this one
So, these quotes all have similar themes
if you don’t know where you are going then you’ll probably end up somewhere else
This is a good one, obviously suggesting without a plan you won’t get where you want to. However, I also look at it as a broader quote, in that if you don’t know where you’re going, you’ll still end up somewhere. That may not be particularly good, because that somewhere could be awful, but you’ve still had an adventure and you’re alive (you hope)
aim for the sky and you’ll probably reach the ceiling. Aim for the ceiling and you’ll probably never get off the ground
Another good one, pushing to be your best and you’ll be ok, but if you don’t aim high then why bother.
Ironically I’m not aiming anywhere right now…
So, this is one I started when I was in the cinema, it was going to bookend a selection of broken stories I started and never finished. Currently Iv only found this, the start of the first book end, the ending and the broken tales haven’t been found yet.
He was injured.
The injuries may as well have scrolled across his augmented helmet lenses such was his awareness of his perfect form.
And his pain.
Broken right leg
Snapped left Achilles
Dislocated right shoulder- state of arm unknown
Left arm crushed
Not to mention the minor injuries not normally of concern.
He was broken.
But he was Astartes.
He was a Space Marine.
And space marines are infallible.
I really hope to find the remainder of this soon
So, another dream from my big weird diary. And this one vivid enough that I still remember the pain.
Me and my sister go to buy some pet pigs, I find one I like and it likes me, it’s pink and black.
The other pigs start biting me and I think it’s jealousy, but then I look down and realise there are bright pink pigs two inches long that Iv been stepping on.
Then the pig I want starts biting me, but doesn’t have any teeth.
Yeah a weird one
So, tonight in the pub I scribbled down a list of things that I want to achieve by the end of the year.
The intention of course is it achieve all of them. Realistically if I can achieve the majority of them then it sets me up to achieve more next year
Here’s the list
Win a game of x wing
Play an x wing tournament and not finish bottom
Paint some kind of wee man from start to finish
Find some productive way to get out of the house more often
Find a good balance of drinking- ie less time drinking lots at home, a little more time (perhaps a regular) drinking a couple in the pub
Write something- no more half started ideas, fully write something, with plans and expansions, submit it for critique online and begin the rewriting
Teach the girl to ride her bike
Teach the girl to tie her laces
Talk to the boy more so he can pick up a word a day (minimum)
Teach the boy something
Have a good time away with my partner
Make some new friends
Write three full chapters of my rom com novel
Clear away all my crap from the house
Get a new suit
Pay off my overdraft
Reduce my loan ahead of schedule
Close my littlewoods account
Cook once a month
Close my bank credit card
Get credit rating to top bracket
Do something I haven’t done before
Go somewhere I haven’t been before
Learn to budget properly
Run 100 miles
Do something weekly with the boy
Give blood twice
Take the girl to wookey hole
Travel somewhere for me
Make someone I don’t know laugh
Make someone I don’t know smile
Play a game of pool
Play a game of warhammer
Play a game of something new
Inventory my wee men collection
Do a car boot sale
Do something amazing for the kids
Do something special that makes my partner say ‘I love you’
Get better at tolerating morons
Get off the anti depressants
Get a friend to visit
Get in touch with some old friends
Try some food I haven’t tried before
Approach someone I don’t know and start a conversation
Plan bigger better targets for next year
Reestablish routine in my life
Decide where I want to go/what I want to do with life
Make a plan to make it happen
Pre thirty bucket list
Find a way of making more money
Persuade my partner to join something
Fill my days with more activities, less vegging out
Discover a new band
Music magpie my DVDs
Maintain my blog, including scheduling future posts
Make friends with a school parent
Get my body sorted
Read 4 ‘classic’ books
Watch 4 ‘top 250’ films I haven’t seen
Watch 2 foreign language films
Rewatch Jodhaa Akbar
Play a game of chess
Get boy off dummies
Find a new hobby
Find a geocache
Learn to use washing machine and tumble dryer
Listen to 4 ‘top 250’ albums I haven’t heard
Watch all Star Wars films with girl
Watch x men days of future past
Watch a life of pi
Watch the hobbit desolation of smaug
Learn something new
Have a ‘dinner evening’ with friends
Invite one of the girls school friends to play
Drink whiskey without watering it down
Buy a bottle of wine that isn’t gone in an evening
It looks like a random list, and essentially it is, I’ll be updating midway through the remainder of this year
So, searching through my big weird diary has uncovered some love related quotes
relationships are naught but a series of complex games
Good one, it’s true, it’s like politics the entire time- worth it though
love does not consist of gazing at each other but in looking together in the same direction
A nice one, too many couples spend all their time being lovey dovey (I’m not a huge fan of lovey dovey soppiness) and you wonder, if they just loved each other and got on with things would they be happier? Maybe, maybe not, but I wouldn’t feel sick everytime they did it
we come to love not by finding a perfect person, but by learning to see an imperfect person perfectly
This I stumbled on somewhere and I think it’s awesome, a truly fantastic explanation for all those people that moan about finding ‘the one.’ Finding the beauty in a person is easy if you’re open to it.
the spaces between your fingers are there so another’s can fill them
Yeah, it’s a little soppy, but it’s nice anyway
So, whilst going through my big weird diary I found random lines of things Iv written, that may once have been the seed of a story, song, poem or just something that occurred to me. They all seem nonsensical to me now, but writing may trigger something
This city is my garden. (This I recall was something to do with living in Cardiff, but I have no idea about the significance of the garden- maybe something to do with potential)
Lions head mask (another Cardiff one, this referred to the lions head shape that spilt paint had made, Iv covered this in the past)
Rip it up, tear it down, stamp it out. (No idea)
This shits signed up doh doh (not the foggiest)
Better grab your bottle fill your tiny cup (nope, nothing)
Should we talk all night? (I can’t remember who triggered this one, but it was in reference to a night me and her were up all night chatting on the sofa when we could have probably gone to bed, but I’m glad we didn’t)
How about standing here and miming conversation (this one was after being at a really crappy student party where it was preferable to stand with familiar faces and do nothing rather than spend any time talking to any of the other guests.
Lost weekend, police breaking down, suicide, mental and physical breakdown, alcoholic, pissed on. (Really no idea here, I suspect it would be a standard plot for a British film, but no memory)